Gee thanks..?

C: Do you remember when you were still wearing your L.A. Gears, playing hide and go seek in the backyard of every family event that you were invited to? Remember how your mom would come out and call you and your siblings inside so you would go say hello to someone who you missed before coming outside? Or when your parents would force you to apologize in front of them not trusting you'd do it on your own when you were ready. As a twenty five year old i thought I was beyond people 'telling' me when to say please and thank you's but as it turns out we never really escape from our moms.. no matter who it is that thinks they're her. Alright, before you all assume I'm some rude chick who never speaks up when she makes a mistake I'm not.. I just cant do it when someone else tells me to because then I feel like its not coming from me. In early adulthood its difficult to not apologize, at least in my opinion, being responsible for every action or non action you do is new territory so I always feel like I'm a second away from having to apologize for something I did incorrectly. I have also found myself on the other side of this table, telling someone to go apologize or say thank you, I guess when you're mom isn't there you automatically put up this radar and listen for the breaks in the conversation where a 'please' or a 'thank you' is supposed to fit. Either way, its an involuntary action that I'm sure no one appreciates. I guess my only question at this point is: How can the person you're apologizing or thanking know that you actually wanted to if they saw you were obligated to do so? The answer is they don't.. I have faith that people, no matter how long it takes, will eventually do the right thing. Forcing them only makes them resent you and prolongs the 'spite' behaviors that will surely arise. You just gotta have a little faith that everyone was raised with even the most basic set of manners. Then again, they just might surprise you.. in a bad way.

M: Peer Pressure when the the crowd you're with becomes Mr. Rogers neighborhood.Just like kings and queens of the noble knight table they whisper the righteous things to say when i just insulted someone or unintentionally did something. but, i don't DO what people tell me to. Is this bad though?a a am i doing something wrong here?. In my opinion.....no........i didn't......at least in saying something I'm supposed to but not on my behalf on behalf of the wrong or right council. If i ever did anything wrong to someone my apologies or the right thing to say would be said on my time. It really is not the same saying I'm sorry just cause you were debriefed by the United Federation of Planets to read your script to that person.