Monday, February 25, 2008

Looks like the road to heaven..

M: NO.....in my own opinion. There's no such thing as Fate.........it is "Free will" that defines us in our ability to make our own decisions & changes. Some Believe that fate is the reason why they are in the situation they are in. The question then lies as: why is this happening to me? why the hell did all this crap fall on me NOW guy?....well, most would consider karma or fate as the reason for anything happening to you. Others would only see it as a test of faith and inner strength with the expectation of blissful results. well, the way i see it. what we put in is what makes our future. We can simply lay there and let time,fate destiny mold us into whatever we are on this earth for or we can exercise our decision making skills....kick that bag-of-doucheness named FEAR and take risks. There's other things that i understand we cannot control such as Natural disasters, going on blind dates that your friends thought was a cute idea because that person likes the same things as you do and you would make a perfect couple and then you thank them for being such great friend......or in my case being as hot as i am all the fine bunny babes are always after me.........................so you see things "we" cannot control. what about fate when it comes to love. Is there a person out there for everyone. in a since its true(statistics do indicate more females are born than males. we not pre-modified to become SUPER compatible with that person(if it was like that then damn that would be pretty lame maybe I'm being too putico about it ). if there was ONE for you and you were super compatible with then if something bad happened to that person then what ?..... that was the only one huh?..... We grow up, we change, we go through trials and tribulations with love.
we cant wait on fate to guide us who is gonna be the ONE. That's why we take chances on who we want to be our companions.We have to go for it, better ourselves, work on it, hope that your opposite sees the same as you. In the end its my thought or my two cents on that subject. Everyone has a say-so in this. its you its your beliefs faith that makes this fate or destiny.it wasn't fate that you farted it was your free will to cut the cheese


C: Of all the blogs we have written I think this is the most emotional one for me. Not because I'm a particularly spiritual person or because of any religious reasons, its just that when pondering whether fate exists I have to think about past experiences that affected me in a rather unfavorable way. I used to attribute fate greatly as one of the main reasons my life was traveling on the road that it was; It seemed that had my previous house not been destroyed by Hurricane Andrew then I would have never moved here and made the 'great' friends that I had at the time. 'Had' being the operative word in that sentence. I was so certain that I had landed in the exact spot I was destined to land in that I never considered the steps I had physically taken to get there. Of course, when things fell apart and I didn't know what went wrong I blamed only myself, and not fate, for the unravelling of my seemingly perfect life. It's funny how when things are going great you feel as though you stumbled on to the right road for once but the moment they go wrong you start remembering all the things you did to screw things up. I am not sure where I stand when it comes to fate and destiny, partly because I am currently suffering from the worst luck imaginable, and partly because some part of me wants to believe that there is a plan; there has to be a light at the end of the dark and LONG tunnel. I guess that's where faith comes in isn't it? Take something bad and believe that something good will somehow come of it. I'm not so sure anymore. The only thing I can do is choose to see the cup as half full.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Hey baby.. whats yo name?

M: Though everyones life theres moments in the college life where you get to have some "fun". by that i mean the good ol' one night bang in the bunny bed followed by the classic temp amnesia i get the next day. It then becomes a usual routine where you go alone or take out the the person of your choice, go to the social shin-dig, then either score or end the evening in a sweet nice goodbye. How long can i go for?......how much puteria can i do before i find the "one"?..............the answer is i don't know......how easy right?.Well like most people the question stands is where am i in my love life?..is it just to look for the "one" to have memories of a lifetime or to just have random one nighters with semi-hot and hot chicks. love or lust and i guess so far in my life ive been in lust ......i tried the other and ended up picking up pieces......therefore i improve on myself and enjoy whats going on now. Theres a little paper i once read that some old man handed to me, that said theres a time for everything. A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away ,A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak, A time to love, and a time to hate.

C: Love or lust? I would have to say that for the last 6 years its been lust, definately. A restless spinning door of guy after guy who I date for aproximately 2 months (or even less) before I start getting bored of and move on to the next one in line. For most of them, I barely remember what they look like.. a few of them I dont even remember their names. Quick flickers in a dark room. Thinking back on why I chose to bounce from one dude to another so quickly is clearly the result of a love lost long ago as is the case in almost everyones life. Once you get burned that wall is never thick enough is it? Its easy to cast someone aside if you never let yourself feel anything for them, not to mention safer. But now that I have had my share of fun (and I believe a few other peoples shares as well :) i think its time to try the love thing, for real this time. No running away at the first sign of real emotion, or not returning calls because he is getting 'used to me' being around, time to let the past be just that.. the past. I've always wondered why it is that I only got burned once and am terrified of the hurt again while other people get hurt WAY worse then me and seem to open up without any restrictions. I guess they are more brave them I am.. well not anymore. in 2008 its all about LOVE!!.. unless I meet a really hot guy at a party. Hey, old habbits die hard ;)